IN REPAIR

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there's beauty in being brave enough to show or tell someone you're hurt. this is something i'm slowly trying to embrace but it's hard because i've spent my whole life trying to be the exact opposite.

i know it's hard to let your guard down. to allow yourself to not be so goddamn proud. i know that. i know because that's me. 

i often hide away and rarely let anyone know what's going on inside my head, and never what's happening in my heart. 

and it's absolutely draining and exhausting. i can't do it anymore. so i pour it out.

if someone makes me angry, if i feel like i'm treated wrong, i say so. if someone hurts me, i at least try to be brave enough to tell them. 

i tell them because i need to. although i wear my heart on my sleeve (or rather attached to a string dragging in the dirt behind me), i'm also incredibly guarded and careful.

it's the oddest combination but i'm slowly accepting it. 

i can't do much about it, i have to embrace it somehow.

there's beauty in telling someone you're hurt. 

there's beauty in walking away.